was it used to attack steenkamp? did she use it to defend herself? or did oscar use it to break down the bathroom door after the shooting? and there are reports by the local media that police had found steroids at the house which authorities have not commented on to cnn. as the legal process now begins against the man known as blade runner, all of oscar's future races have been canceled. he was scheduled to run in australia, brazil, the u.s., the uk, and russia. and while pistorius is in court on tuesday for a bail hearing, reeva's family said there will be a memorial service for her as producers of her reality show released this farewell message from her, meant to be on her show, but now becomes her last good-bye. >> i take home with me so many amazing memories and things that are in here and in here that i will treasure forever. i'm going to miss you all so much. and i love you very, very much. >> imagine how difficult that must have been for her family and friends to watch. erin, back to you. >> this case has left those who were closest to oscar p